Welcome to my Parlour ...

On August 26th, 2010, my mother passed beyond the veil.
This event has become a catalyst for change in many and often profound ways in my life.
This is my way of chronicling those changes so that I may, at a later date, have the ability to review and reflect upon them.

~ Go dtugtar breith orainn dá réir ár ngníomhartha. ~
(Let us, by our actions, be judged)

Tuesday, January 17, 2017

Be careful what you ask for ...

... You just might get it and then some.

Well, I had been intending to do more with my Flame Keeping ... just hadn't expected it to be quite this way and quite this soon.

Spent yesterday sifting through the Ord Brighideach International website Cill rosters to create four Excel 'workbooks' ... one each for the Female Only, Male Only and CoEd Cills as well as one for the Individual Keepers by shift. An accurate (as possible considering that the website isn't working too well and the membership list is likely not up to date) accounting of who is tending what shift in each Cill with a view to helping the lass who is trying to get the whole shebang up and running again to determine what Cills need deleted and which ones have holes they need filled to create full rosters.

Then, once I had done that (including names and any email addresses and websites that may have been included in each person's public profile), I boiled it down into a single Word file that lists the Cills by name and records how many shifts are filled versus how many are empty.

Actually felt nice to be useful and to put my knack for obsessing over minutiae (as well as high tolerance for tedious work) to good use.

Sunday, January 8, 2017

well, Flame Keeping went ...

not quite the way I'd have liked it to .. body pain got in the way and I switched out some crochet for my intended spinning.

Still ... that was a full night's vigil and I'm in that dreamy, slightly surreal, exhaustion mode that happens when you pull an all-nighter and you're over the age of 40 ;P

Going to try to stay awake until a reasonable hour and hopefully sleep well tonight.

Saturday, January 7, 2017

First milestone ...

Still working away daily at the Irish and earned enough points to "purchase" a streak freeze (essentially allows me to miss a single day in a seven day streak) in case there should be a time when I cannot make it to the computer.

Still working away at the Hermit card ... it took me in an unexpectedly revealing direction yesterday. I ended up with quiet tears rolling down my face and yet more resolve to see this through wherever it may lead.

Tonight is my first Flame Keeper shift since the New Year and I'm experiencing some trepidation and reluctance but not going to let that stop me. The only way I can become accustomed to something new would be to do it enough times for it to become routine and that knee-jerk "I don't want to" response is equal parts my depression and my laziness working on me.

It won't be anything fancy tonight, just me .. my candle .. my wheel and some combed top (wool) to while away the hours between sundown and sunup but it is still a foundation for better and perhaps more ritualistic vigils to come. Most of my good stuff, fancy candle holders, and even the special roving I bought a few years ago now for my friend Jen is still packed in boxes in the basement.

Need to get sufficient oomph together to dare cut the desks out of their boxes and assemble them so my craft table can be liberated from doing computer duty and I can get on with the unpacking. It's hard right now to even want to do it when breathing is so difficult and painful but *upside* I have my date for the initial consult with the surgeon for the 20th so not even a month to wait to get a bit of progress on that.

Thursday, January 5, 2017

Baby Steps ...

So ... we're five days into 2017 and I'm actually making some progress.

I'm current in my Duolingo study of Irish ... that's what I chose for my daily project. Seems like a decent enough yet fairly simple beginning. With the app sending me reminders daily, it is easier to remain current than with any of the other projects I considered.

I would have preferred to have something of a restoring physical fitness nature on that list but, the reality of my health situation is such that it is ill advised to do anything of an exercise nature until after I get together with the surgeon and sort out this 'bosom too heavy for inspiration' issue. I am O2 deprived at the best of times ... having to go slowly and deliberately up the stairs, avoiding bending over or anything that alters my blood pressure or I'm apt to hit the floor from dizziness. Haven't fainted yet but, if I'm honest, I've come close a few times.

I'm also current in my research for the first card of my weekly/three year project ... I've managed to post something useful to it each day over on my BeanTighe site.

I have my first FlameKeeper shift of the year coming up on the 7th which will coincide with Mercury coming out of retrograde on the 8th and allowing my to move into a more active phase.

And, with K buying me a Brita jug, I have made the switch from pop back to water as my main daily beverage. While I had regressed into drinking pop over the last six months, I at least was able to limit myself to Ginger Ale instead of my old Coca Cola standby so the switch back is a lot easier on me. It's been quite easy really ... it was pretty much my dislike for unfiltered water that was keeping me on the soda anyhow.

Plans for the immediate future (post Jan 8th) ...

  • get the desks assembled so we can finish unpacking the basement
  • get the bookcase shelves in place up in my room so I can unpack my metaphysical library and find the magical household ones.
  • get a large reusable/dry erase calendar to put up on the main floor so I can keep track of various things that need tracking. 

Monday, January 2, 2017

In with the new ...

Well, yesterday ended up taking care of itself.

I was, apparently, so sleep deprived that by 5 in the afternoon I was literally falling asleep at the keyboard ... and that's not my misusing the word, I was doing the 'eyes wouldn't stay open and then jolting awake as I started to topple' thing.

So, I went to bed and slept pretty close to straight through until 7:30 this morning. Apparently I really needed it.

As annoyed with myself at the false start to the new year, this has done something useful in that it has reset my internal clock to a daytime schedule. Something I will be endeavouring to maintain going forward ... it's really tough for a person like me for whom insomnia is a frequent visitor as being awake until 6 or 7 a,m then sleeping until noon isn't conducive to getting anything done.

I'm taking it as an unintentional win and going to move forward from there.